{"id":71,"date":"2006-05-19T20:28:17","date_gmt":"2006-05-19T18:28:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/?p=71"},"modified":"2006-07-08T14:22:50","modified_gmt":"2006-07-08T12:22:50","slug":"jag-vet-inte-annu-hur-det-hanger-ihop","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/?p=71","title":{"rendered":"jag vet inte \u00c3\u00a4nnu hur det h\u00c3\u00a4nger ihop"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>men jag b\u00c3\u00b6rjar h\u00c3\u00a4r: usch. usch usch usch. jag satte mej ner vid datorn i f\u00c3\u00b6rel\u00c3\u00a4sningsrummet under pausen och b\u00c3\u00b6rjade en post med titeln &#8220;<strong>vasa. och s\u00c3\u00a5nt. och s\u00c3\u00a5nt<\/strong>&#8220;. sen avbryter mej n\u00c3\u00a5gra fr\u00c3\u00a5n klassen med &#8220;<em>vet du om att vi ser allt du g\u00c3\u00b6r f\u00c3\u00b6r projektorn visar det p\u00c3\u00a5 v\u00c3\u00a4ggen?<\/em>&#8221; det k\u00c3\u00a4ndes S\u00c3\u2026 pinsamt, tur att inte klassen var fylld med mig, d\u00c3\u00a5 skulle alla ha njutit av situationen tills jag loggade ut, och SEN ber\u00c3\u00a4ttat.<\/p>\n<p>i varje fall. det h\u00c3\u00a4r \u00c3\u201eR inte min dagbok, (tack tack tack f\u00c3\u00b6r att messenger av n\u00c3\u00a5n orsak inte gick att starta), s\u00c3\u00a5 jag kan v\u00c3\u00a4l lugna ner mej nu ren. min dagbok heter hello kitty och har slipade metallrosa p\u00c3\u00a4rmar. min blogg heter thomas och h\u00c3\u00a4r tecknar jag, typ. h\u00c3\u00a4r m\u00c3\u00a5lar jag graffiti. h\u00c3\u00a4r skriver jag i marginalen. det h\u00c3\u00a4r \u00c3\u00a4r mitt &#8220;vad-jag-vill-h\u00c3\u00a4fte&#8221; i ny tappning. <em>h\u00c3\u00a4r<\/em> \u00c3\u00a4r ett sj\u00c3\u00a4lv\u00c3\u00a4ndam\u00c3\u00a5l.<\/p>\n<p>jag l\u00c3\u00a4ste i gunnar norrlunds medhavda bok &#8220;<em>r\u00c3\u00a4dslan f\u00c3\u00b6r n\u00c3\u00a4rhet<\/em>&#8221; eller var det &#8220;<em>psykoterapi med par<\/em>&#8220;, &#8211; hursomhelst &#8211; ett citat om att vara av k\u00c3\u00a4rlek med en annan; att ge ord f\u00c3\u00b6r sina k\u00c3\u00a4nslor nu och nu och nu tillsammans med den andra. att k\u00c3\u00a4nna sig trygg i det och g\u00c3\u00b6ra det f\u00c3\u00b6r sin egen skull, och kanske tar den andra emot vad man uttrycker, men uttryckandet \u00c3\u00a4r ett sj\u00c3\u00a4lv\u00c3\u00a4ndam\u00c3\u00a5l. s\u00c3\u00a5 ocks\u00c3\u00a5 nu, h\u00c3\u00a4r. jag \u00c3\u00a4r av k\u00c3\u00a4rlek med mina egna ord. kanske \u00c3\u00a4r de min motsvarighet till narkissos vattenhinna.<\/p>\n<p>det h\u00c3\u00a4r \u00c3\u00a4r en post som handlar om min blogg. en meta-post, och nu \u00c3\u00a4r jag meta-meta. det \u00c3\u00a4r jag s\u00c3\u00a4kert inte alls, jag bara tycker om <em>meta<\/em>.  MIN BLOGG.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p><em>den har tre kanter\/ <\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>tre kanter har min blogg\/ <\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>och har den ej tre kanter\/ <\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>s\u00c3\u00a5 \u00c3\u00a4r den ej\/ <\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>min blogg!<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><a title=\"eye\" class=\"imagelink\" href=\"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/wp-content\/eye.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<div style=\"text-align: center\"><a title=\"eye\" class=\"imagelink\" href=\"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/wp-content\/eye.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"eye\" id=\"image12\" src=\"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/wp-content\/eye.jpg\" \/><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>men jag b\u00c3\u00b6rjar h\u00c3\u00a4r: usch. usch usch usch. jag satte mej ner vid datorn i f\u00c3\u00b6rel\u00c3\u00a4sningsrummet under pausen och b\u00c3\u00b6rjade en post med titeln &#8220;vasa. och s\u00c3\u00a5nt. och s\u00c3\u00a5nt&#8220;. sen avbryter mej n\u00c3\u00a5gra fr\u00c3\u00a5n klassen med &#8220;vet du om att vi ser allt du g\u00c3\u00b6r f\u00c3\u00b6r projektorn visar det p\u00c3\u00a5 v\u00c3\u00a4ggen?&#8221; det k\u00c3\u00a4ndes S\u00c3\u2026 pinsamt, &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/?p=71\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">jag vet inte \u00c3\u00a4nnu hur det h\u00c3\u00a4nger ihop<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4,14,8],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-71","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-floating-attention","category-meta","category-the-big-picture"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/71","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=71"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/71\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=71"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=71"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.oculex.fi\/thomas\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=71"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}